Yoga is my new best friend

Yoga is my new best friend. Seriously. Like you think I'm joking. Nope. Def not. It is AH-MAZING! Here's the deal. It has been one hell of a roller coaster week. Yoga has saved my butt on 2 days where I was really depressed.

Monday I found out that Natchez was filling the museum technician position I was hoping for. One of the rangers who's been here for 7 years, and who I like a lot, got it. Now don't hear what I'm not saying. I'm not mad that she got it. I love Jessica, she's a sweetheart. She's been here 7 years, she really wanted the position, and she'll be great at it. I'm a relative newbie, so that probably would have caused problems anwyay. I didn't really want the position except as a backup. So it's not that. Still, it's a bummer getting passed over. On top of that, everything kept breaking at work on Monday. Sucky day overall. I went to yoga class. Seriously, an hour later, I felt SO much better. Like I went from crying to my dad on the phone to absolutely fine. Awesome.

Tuesday was a good day. A great day actually. WE WON TRIVIA! Partly because I knew movies and Stephen Hawking - thank you Legally Blonde "they say Stephen Hawking stole his A brief history of time from my 4th grade paper"

Past two days were good. Nothing really to report.

Today I agreed to hostess every weekend for Rosalie, 9-5. So I will be working 7 days a week. They're making an exception for me to go to Kilgore and see Luke and Emily in Texas Shakespeare Festival. I might also ask for another exception so I can go to New ORleans at some point. But otherwise I'm working 7 days a week, either 8-5 (for Melrose) or 9-5 (for Rosalie) till August. Yeah.

Then I got devastating news. Galveston bit the dust. Well, we're about 95% sure Galveston bit the dust. It could come back to life. But that's not looking very good. It wasn't my fault that Galveston bit the dust though. The finance committee took the position out of next years budget, so they cna't pay it. Yeah. The budget still has to be approved, and things are looking better than they had origianlly anticipated, and they know they desperately need a curator, so it COULD be put back in there. But right now it doesn't look good. I was really upset. I left work a little early today and sobbed my whole way home. But I knew I had to go to Rosalie and pick up my stuff to learn the story so I can start giving tours there soon. So I decided to try and see if I could get the same feeling I did when I was bummed on Monday. Keep in mind that I was MUCH more upset about Galveston than I was about the museum tech. I did 10 minutes of yoga, versus an hour. I felt SO much better. I don't know if it was taking the time in the corpse pose to pray, or just focusing on "inhale, exhale" or something about the poses. But whatever it was, it works! Granted, after I go to the ballet with Darian tonight, I will probably go home and have a break down. But still. For right now, it got me to the point that I could go to Rosalie and get me stuff, fill out an application for a job in Hawaii, and get ready for the ballet, all without sobbing, hyperventilating, or having red eyes and tear stains! THIS IS AMAZING!

Oh and I decided to claim a little bit of disability in my national park service job applications. They have the option of "distortion of a limb or spine" on their disability thing. I have scoliosis. My spine is curved. Thus it is distorted. I'm hoping that means I qualify for section A, so I can skip all the interview and bs process and get hired instantly. HERE'S HOPING.

I'm also applyign for a bunch of internships with the Student Conservation Association. Plus there's a whole list of jobs I've found that I'm sending out.

Something's gonna happen for me. I'm gonna find a job. After all, it only takes one. And all I need is my foot in the door. Even if it is just my tiny little pinkie toe, as it would be with the SCA or the STEP program. SOMETHING'S gotta work out, right?!

Love and miss you all. Please be praying for me as I get through these next few weeks. Theyt're going to be very stressful - I'm working 7 days a week and searchig for a job so that I don't have to come home in 8 weeks unemployed and without health insurance, all while having a life down here. Yeah.